Two years ago, something fundamental happened - one of my biggest belief systems was shattered completely, leaving me alone and bewildered. I still have the scars from it today, and my belief in belief itself, whilst getting better, is still not anywhere near what I had before. Having to rethink my beliefs hurt, and I really wouldn't wish it on anyone. I can understand why people are so resistant to changing their minds, especially on dearly held religions and philosophies, because to let them go exposes you so very much, and leaves a lasting impact.
It's so necessary though, whether it be fundamentalist religion, habitual atheism or dogmatic science - any shell of belief can form around us and leave us blind and entrenched in closed-minded thinking. At the same time, it's easy to be influenced and pulled this way and that by loud voices and conspiracy theories, leaving one dazed and confused. I've been through this as well, as I tried to pick up the pieces of my shattered philosophy again. It's really difficult to keep both perspective and depth when the scab of thought has been well and truly picked.
But it's when you're down, accepting your reality, that you're most open to new growth and to change. Sometimes not much needs to change, but sometimes we have to scrap certain fundamental axioms and start again, however difficult they are to put down. Removing the shell means that new thought, new ideas and new energy can reach us again to bring life back into the mind and body.
It has been painful, but it's also been well worth it, even if I'm still not fully in the right place again. I'm now heading in the right direction, seeing the world again without the lenses I had before, and to be honest if I get another shell of thought back I'd want a certain amount of smashing to keep me from settling into a rut again. Masochism it may be, but when I see the amount of craziness that kicks off around the globe from people who have closed their minds to sense, it's worth it.
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